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Don't you love it when you start thread or reply to threads and not one flipping thread is anwser or if it is it's almost a week later.
I really hate my life, I really have no friends. I've told them to bug off, or wronged them not meaning to, or they just use me as the third wheel. Denver and I fight more and more every day. Really today I saw why. It's not me, it's not him, nor is it the baby. It's his mother. She has to have every thing move and circle around her. If something it's right in her life she has to take it out on some one and it's me, and tonight it was Dylan. She is always verbally distorting me any time she can, she holds it over my head she has to pay for my car. Well as of tonight I've decided I'm cleaning it out and giving it back to her, that will be one last thing she will be able to hold over my head. The day I came home from the hospital all she could do is insult me, told Denny we needed to find a new place to live. etc, etc. Tonight because she hasn't had any sleep she came down stairs telling Denny and I where stupid for living here with him, because she's sick of him. She thinks it's stupid that where here...Trust me I hate hate hate it here.
So life has been moving at a rather fast speed, I am online a lot for now, but Chubby(Dylan) has been so fun and enjoyable to have home finally. I couldn't have been blessed with a better son. Though I would love to rant how every one that has had a child feels the need to point out what you are doing wrong, like telling me blue jeans on him is not okay and I need to stop dressing him like a little man...I feel that I am able to dress my son how I please till he is able and willing to make that choice on his own. Again, please do not yell at my son telling him to quit crying, and then go to yell at me telling me I'm stupid to bring him back home because he wasn't ready because baby's just don't randomly cry. That's funny because you just got done telling me your oldest son had started his at 7, and there was no reason why...Dylan has a reason. If I tell you leave him alone he needs his sleep I mean that, I don't mean degrade me because you don't want to hear that. It was so cute watching him lay on his side trying to pet/play with Anya. She calmed him down, and she try to put on a front about caring about him, but if he fusses she gets Denny up to take care of him. I love my Chubby so much.

So far going back to the NICU was the hardest thing I had to do with him, going to the doctor and being told they are readmitting killed me....sad thing is two friend sent me a message and offered to help me out...and all I ever asked either one to do was talk to me while I walked though a really shady part of town....They are my girls, They got my back and I lover them for that. Just showed me once again who my fake ass friends where, and I think they know who they are.

Another rant....how do they expect preemie's not to get RSV when you have people all the time coming to see him? We go to the doctor Friday, have a RN coming on Monday, and the 9th and the 29 we have clinics. It's run here, run there but don't forget to feed the baby ever three hours.

And comments are blocked because I just don't give a damn.

X-Mas Wish list

Please don't think you have to get me any thing. I am making a list for family and friends to look at and get ideas at what I would like to have this year.

Grey's Season 4-5(Blu-Ray, or Normal DVD)
Monster® iCarPlay™ Wireless Plus for iPod.
Gift cards to get my hair done.
Gift cards for a massage.
Gift cards to Old Navy, Bath and Body Works, destination maternity, and iTunes.
External Hard Drive( few hundred GB would be nice).
A Digital Camera(Pink one please?)
Art.
1. Name:
2. Birthday:
3. Where do you live:
4: What are you studying/What are you working as:
5. What makes you happy:
6. What are you listening to now/have listened to last:
7. What is particularly good/bad about my LJ:
8. An interesting fact about you:
9. Are you in love/have a crush at the moment:
10. Favorite place to be:
11. Favorite lyric:
12. Best time of the year:
13. Weirdest food you like:

RECOMMEND
1. A film:
2. A book:
3. A song:
4: A band:

PLUS
1. One thing you like about me:
2. Two things you like about yourself:
3. Put this in your lj so I can tell you what I think of you?
It feels great to be able to get around some one that I tried to date and we both knew it wasn't going to work out, but I am able to open up and be my-self. I am able to be Kitoto. I am a fur and I shouldn't be shameful it me and it built into me, like me being a smart ass, who is bossy and over caring and with out meaning to can be to matter of a fact like. I wanted to thank this persona and I don't know how, but they know who they are I've told them thanks for letting me remember that it's okay just to kick back and be kit once again, she is me.

Also thanks Denver for another wonderful year. :) Your love has helped me fix many things that I have found fault with in my life, your a wonderful man and I hope one day to let you know and show you what you mean to me;]

Magic Cards for Sale

Magic Cards

3xGrizzly Bears-$2.00
2xStream Of Life-$2.00/each
Quirion Elves-$1.00
Tranquil Domain-.25
2xWar Mammoth-.50/each
Seedling Charm-.15
Living Artifact-25.00
2xElven Riders-.50
Willow Faerie-.25
2xIronroot treefolk-1.50
Metamorphosis-1.50
2xMarsh Viper-.15/each
Wild Growth-2.00
Whirling Dervish-1.50
3xGiant Growth-15.00
Storm Seeker-3.00
Winter Blast-.50
Crumble-.15
Folk of An-havva-.15
Autumn Willow-7.00
Tranquility-2.00
2xPradesh gypsies-.15/each
Yavimaya Ancients-.15
2xVenom-.25
Radjan Spirit-.50
2xNafs Asp-2.00
3xDurkwood Boars-.15
Unseen Walker-.75
Wall of Wood-1.50
4xForset-$3.00
2xSandstorm-.30
Hungry Mist-.50
3xLand Leeches-.15
Gorilla Chieftain-.30
Revelation-2.50
2xFog1.50 each
Craw wurm-3.00
Scavenger folk-.50
Jolrael Centaur-.25
Regeneration-1.50
Shrink-.25
Llanowar Elves-14.00
2xGiant Spider-2.00
Hungry Mist-.15
Hurricane-6.00
Web-$28.00
wanderlust-$5.00
2xRegeneration-2.00
Llanowar Elves-$14.00
Carnivorous plant-.50
Scryb Sprites-.50
Tsunami-4.50

Leave me a message here with your e-mail and which card you would like, and I will e-mail you.

..and where open!



8:35 am est:OPEN

Animal Crossing

I am on Animal Crossing: Wild World, gates are open! My Friend Code is 0946-503-7565.

Rules:

Dig it up, it's yours as long as the museum don't have it.
Pull the grass I love you!
Take a pear or coconut if you need it.
Don't cut down trees, don't kill my flowers, and PLEASE shop at Nooks!

Jackie!

Happy birthday babe! I hope it was a great one! Call me to get together some time soon!